A civilized society has a certain amount of assistance for the disabled, elderly, children, pregnant women and newborns if they cannot afford medical treatment. I see people saying the poor have it made. This is a lie. It is very hard to live on disability. Even if poor people get food stamps, it is usually only a very small supplement. Poor kids should have Medicaid. What would happen to these people, especially children, old people and people with disabilities requiring medical assistance, if they were to lose Medicaid? And, Medicare must stay secure and not privatized or a voucher system as well as the V.A..
I realize some people have different reasons for being a Democrat. I think for the middle class, it would be better under President Obama than Mitt Romney. To think of a few, taxes would be lower and higher for the rich, so that some of your tax money might actually help the poor more than the rich. And, the middle class and poor would be able to get pele grants to go to college or for their kids to go to college. Then there is health care for everyone at a low cost and being able to insure kids til they are twenty-five on your policy.
Also, President Obama is very pro-Israel, more so than some Democrats and I love that. I sympathize with Palestine, I truly do, but Israel is our ally. Still, we would be at peace, whereas the Republicans would just keep spending on wars we do not need to be in anymore. He also brings God into it, and although some people like complete separation in Church and State, I like some God in the government. I really do. President Obama is more conservative than people realize. I like that. I mean, I am basically a liberal, but as you know I have some conservative views.
I know that choice is important for women. I do want women to have choice, but truthfully I find this irrelevant in my own philosophy, having never confronted that in any way. Having kids was always priority for me, and I had to fight to keep a baby, because of complications of my own body. Sometimes, when you have had to fight for a baby, you cannot relate to someone not wanting one, but truthfully women have a choice, and it is their business I guess. I realize I waver on this one issue, and some of my readers may think I have had as many different views on this as Mitt Romney. Joke. But, seriously I do not like the 'a' word, if you know what I mean. Still I will support President Obama one-hundred percent. And, I will support all women as sisters and whatever their choice is.
When I acted crazy on fb one night, and hysterical, I guess I was upset because birth control has always been free to women, but I will not get into my own issues again. I already took a fearless and searching moral inventory of myself and why I got so upset. So, I will just leave it at that.
I had an Australian guy tell me if I were to marry an Australian and move to Australia that the government would take care of me being legally blind and all. It was not a proposal. He is already married. It was a suggestion. However, I want to stay in America, the greatest nation on earth. I am so not interested in going to Australia.
I am not a socialist, but every great nation needs some socialism. What do they think libraries are? And the list goes on. I just do not believe that putting the poor in jeopardy and trickle down economics is ever going to work. It is good to help the poor who can work get back to work. That is what we all want. But, realistically poverty cannot be erased and not caring is not the answer.
If the U.S. makes it impossible for citizens to live, they will have two choices, leave the country or protest the government. And, who wants to leave one's own country? Who can afford a plane ticket, a passport? I sure cannot. No one wants to protest either. That would not be much fun at all, getting maced in the face like the peaceful Wall Street protesters. I am not suggesting anything, just pointing it out. I am very patriotic. I love this country as we know it.
Just read Naomi Wolf's book: Warning to a Young Patriot; the End of America. If anyone watched the shocking youtube video I posted of Paul Ryan at a town hall meeting, allowing an ex-marine to make offensive comments towards Mexicans, nodding his head in agreement all the while and even taking notes, then shuts down a woman who not out of line at all, tries to say that this is racist talk, and she gets removed from the room by police. Is this freedom? No, it is not. Is this the kind of regime America is headed for? No, it is not. I am a patriot. Vote for Barack Obama.
My blog is called The New Humanity because eventually through our wonderful youth and those who truly care for the well being of others besides their own selves, there will emerge a Golden Age when the lion will lie down with the lamb. Human beings will stop seeing one another divided into race, religion, creed or sect, and all human beings shall live as brothers and sisters in a utopia of love and kindness.
Some people have taken the phrase 'cruel to be kind' out of context in order to more comfortably justify the annihilation of the poor weak or disabled. They have even tried throwing Meher Baba quotes at me, but I will not accept that, to justify their fear of losing their wealth. They are not in danger of losing their wealth.
As for me, I have been praying and crying for others and how I do not want any of us to suffer, but when you have experienced poverty for real and not just as some poetic metaphor, you know that yes there is great suffering in loss of what you have, but you have already suffered greatly, and if becoming an activist on behalf of the poor including women, infants, children and men who are sick and or disabled, is in order, than so be it. Maria Antoinette said, "let them eat cake" when a man stopped her in the streets of Paris to say, "my family has no bread to eat." She and Louis XVI were beheaded.
This lack of compassion breeds from ignorance. It is even repugnant to me, to hear people talk of illusion philosophically, to explain human suffering when they are not the ones experiencing it. I have studied Meher Baba my whole life along with maya which means illusion, as well as A Course in Miracles for over four years now and I still find this offensive. I feel that one ought not speak of the suffering of humanity or the Avatar Himself in these terms, not in my book anyway. I disagree with some interpretations of A Course in Miracles when it comes to two things as far as I am concerned: (1) since it is all illusion, there is not much need to concern oneself with the world's injustices because everything happened and nothing happened at once, although in a sense true, and (2) I feel that when Jesus Christ was on the cross, He really did say, "Father, why hast Thou forsaken me?" and yes this was His humanness and not a "belief system" as some ACIM people might say. It may not have been part of the writing in which Helen channeled Jesus for Bill to take dictation of in the 1960's in New York City, but is no doubt one of the most beautiful things Jesus gave to humanity as a whole.
I feel that the phrase 'cruel to be kind' is about tough love, ex: you are married to an abusive alcoholic who asks you to go out to get more booze and you say "no", or you have a teenager who begs you to let them hang out with a crowd that is doing drugs, and you say "no."
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Of course I must add that if you are with an abusive alcoholic and you are a woman, it would also be wise to take yourself and your children (if you have any) to a shelter if you are in danger, call a trusted friend, and go to Alanon, a support group for spouses, parents, children or loved ones of alcoholics (all of this may apply if you are a man as well, except that women are usually in more danger due to being the physically less strong and therefore more vulnerable sex).
If you, yourself, think you may have a problem with alcohol, Alcoholics Anonymous has helped many to stay sober, although it is not for everyone, and is not the only way. Twelve step programs are very spiritual, and I think that the twelve steps are something everyone would benefit from, especially the fourth step, taking a searching and fearless moral inventory of oneself and step five, admitted to God, oneself and another human being the nature of our wrongs, six and seven, asking God humbly to remove character defects and short comings, nine, making amends if appropriate and if it would not cause more harm and ten, "when we were wrong promptly admitted it," and continued to make amends, as well as eleven, maintained conscious contact with God as we understood Him through prayer and meditation. Like all other dealings with people, the twelfth tradition of AA is "principles before personalities." Many alcoholics are sick people, and there are clashes which are discouraging and cause members to give up and go back out, finding less support on returning, because egos get in the way of helping others, which is the twelfth step. But, for some people a drinking problem may be a passing phase, and not necessarily indicative of being an alcoholic forever if one's drinking can stay moderate and under control. Believe it or not, many people go through passing phases in their lives related to circumstances. For instance, a person who has a break down, does not necessarily have a mental illness. Stress and strain can cause all kinds of changes in people, and these changes do not necessarily last, which is an uplifting thought. In fact some people have camelion like qualities, that enable them to phase from one thing to another, and sometimes the very people who act the most sane, may really have more problems than one would know. For instance, many psychologists and psychiatrists have problems themselves, which is what may have triggered their interest in the field of psychology to begin with, and I am not generalizing when I say this, because I am sure that this is often not the case whatsoever.
Back on point, the concept of tough love has nothing what so ever to do with taking away from the poor what little they have.
To be thorough I would like to add the other four steps I left out: 1) admitted we were powerless over alcohol and our lives had become unmanageable, 2) that only a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity, 3) made a conscious contact with God as we understood Him, and 8) made a list of all those we had harmed and were willing to make amends to them all. We find who these individuals are by doing a fourth and fifth step with the help of a sponsor, someone we fully trust and know would never gossip. I realize that looking at all of this work ahead, it can be easy to have "stood at the turning point, we balked... What an order, how can I go through with it?" It is hard sometimes not to balk. It goes on to say "we wanted an easier softer way, but the result was nil until we let go absolutely..." excerpt from How it Works from the book, Alcoholics Anonymous.
As the book The Road Less Traveled begins: "Life is hard." I wish that it was not. Perhaps by listening to philosophers like Eckhart Tolle, a personal favorite of mine and my son's as well, one can find some ease.
I was once having a meal with a guy who took me on my first Harley Davidson ride, which was really fun. We were talking, while I was eating my reuben sandwich. I was talking about some experience and how it was resolved. I said, "and so then I felt better, because... this girl told me the same thing happened to her." As I recall I was talking about feeling humiliated and ridiculed in a situation.
He said, "why ya gotta feel better?" I write it like that because he spoke that way for real.
I said "I don't know."
When I thought back on our conversation, I thought, "Hmm, he is a philosopher of sorts. Why do I have to feel better? Feelings are not facts anyway, and this too shall pass." But I admit sometimes the heart can use some comfort.
I hope you enjoyed this lengthy essay. Love to all. Namaste.
I realize I am not keeping my promise to stay out of politics. I was not going to watch the news, but sometimes nothing else is very interesting on television or computer even.
I realize many people are unemployed and disillusioned with the current administration. However, President Obama is really not entirely to blame. He inherited a huge national debt, as well as two wars, one of which he withdrew the troops although that was the plan, and is withdrawing troops from Afghanistan. We cannot police the world any more. Yes we need a strong military, and although I am pro-Israel, Iran really is not a threat to us or Israel. From what I understand, a lot of this is propaganda.
The Romney Ryan plan would mean genocide to the poor, elderly, children and disabled. It would mean profit to the rich. A huge part of middle to upper middle class tax money would go to the rich. They are only for the rich. There is not one humane thing in their agenda.
Perhaps some think that if they were God forbid, elected, then the job market would improve. This is where I compare them to nazis. First of all they are not talking about making jobs. However Hitler used a notorious filmmaker to make a propaganda film against the Jews to make them think that the Jews were taking every job, and were basically horrible people. I have studied the history of pre-Nazi Germany, and the number of Jews holding positions such as doctors and lawyers, etc was staggeringly low. They did have some businesses, and in 1939 they had a Jewish mayor in Frankfurt, and now they have the first Jewish mayor since then.
I think this Paul Ryan guy is like Adolf Hitler, except instead of exterminating Jews, he wants to exterminate the poor through deprivation of life sustaining medication, lack of prenatal care to poor women, lack of neonatal care to their babies, lack of care for poor children, lack of care for the disabled in terms of medical transportation and some life sustaining medication as well as hospitals doctor, etc, as well as loss of health care for the elderly who most need it through the loss of Medicaid and the privatization of Medicare. He was trying to fool Florida by bringing his mother along to say that she is on Medicare. There are other seniors on Medicaid as well and who have serious health issues. Here in the south where I live, there is a high rate of diabetes, high blood pressure, heart disease, blindness due to complications of poverty such as diabetic retinopathy and untreated glaucoma. I live in a conservative state, but Medicaid still helps many poor people in South Carolina, because we have a high rate of poverty. I have ridden the Medicaid transportation for years, because I am legally blind, for doctor appointment, and have ridden with very disabled and poor people, who would otherwise have no way to get to the doctor. There is also mental illness, which is debilitating to many people in this country.
Already many people with schizoprhrenia live on the street and are homeless. It is nearly impossible to work with this illness, having someone close to me who suffers from it. This illness comes on in the late teens to late twenties when a person has little to no work history and can only qualify for SSI and Medicaid. In order for a person with schizophrenia to function, they must have regular anti-psychotic oral medication or injections. This enables them to live with family, in a group home or rarely but sometimes independently and stay out of hospitals, jails, the street and institutions, and also enables them to possibly hold down a small job for wages or voluntary basis if high functioning. What would happen to these people? As a person who loves someone with this illness, I know much about it and am aligned with NAMI. Still there is very little support in the world. How can they pull the rug out from under them?
Under the Romney Ryan plan there would be nothing for these people. Although I have said that I am pro-life, I think it is inhumane to force a woman who is the victim of rape and or incest to give birth. Ryan wants people who have abortions to go to jail. Even Sarah Palin did not want that to happen. I saw an interview with her with Katie Kurik when she was running with McCain. If they do not want any health care for poor women and their infants, then they are forcing them to give birth so that both mothers and infants can die suffering.
You may think that I am really dramatic, but I am just passionately offended by what they are trying to do, not for myself, but for many many others who will suffer and die from this. Also, many poor people with cancer are on Medicare and or Medicaid, without Medicaid many of them will die, and hospitals take Medicaid now. What happens if there is no Medicaid for the poor and sick and old, young or disabled? Misery, sickness, suffering and death.
In '96 I made my last pilgrimage to India, and I am sure I will not go back due to finances, but I felt almost bad about having gone. I was thirty-five and at the time my younger child was only seven. In retrospect, I often feel that I should have gotten him back from his father and got him back in school here sooner after I got back from Colorado, but I was impulsive and went to India for all the wrong reasons. Tonight as I cannot sleep, I realized that maybe it was for a reason, reasons beyond my knowing.
I sent my brother a letter today in which I was reminded of my father, how proud he was of his own writing, and before I left for India in September of that year, he gave me a poem or ghazel rather, which he asked me to read aloud in Mandali Hall with Eruch Jessawalla present, and I did.
My father also gave me twenty dollars to buy garlands of flowers to lay on the Samadhi. In India twenty dollars buys a lot of flower garlands in three weeks, and I used every bit of it on garlands of roses and other flowers from street vendors like the ones near the trust office where the bus comes.
Maybe I went there just to read the poem and lay the flowers with the help of others in the tomb. I am no longer very devotional, but in my heart I still love Baba.
Life has not been that kind to me over the years. My life has been rather difficult in a lot of ways, a lot of challenges. I hope that it will improve. I think that positive things will come to pass.
With all the evil in the political arena, and the fear of loss of all that is humane, I am trying to turn it over, let go and let God, and think of Baba and spirituality, rather than falling into the fears of some sort of 'may or may not be' holocaust.
I feel things are changing rapidly, but perhaps nothing bad will happen to America. I remember when the twin towers happened, I went to a program at the Meher Center. There was a letter from the Mandali in India, most of whom are gone now. They went into Baba's room and prayed for America. It touched my heart and I wept.
Oh Lord of love, God personified,
I am on my knees, a beggar's lament,
Must the dark clouds of doom and disaster crash down on those who have already cried, Is our devotion to You, and simple tragedy, though not Your crucifixion, still a metaphor
only for the magnitude that is You?
I beg you on bent knee at Your threshold, Lord of Love personified, not to again count the ones who died,
For how many sacrifices will one have to pay, for one hope's bright light ray,
For one image of Your golden chakra,
denying tragic karma?
A beggar, I lament to you: if I am not fit to live, then I will die,
For I am lost and have nothing to give but a song, a poem, a dance that none will see.
How many people must die before the ignorance of evil has released its dark impressions? When the bodies lie in heaps in black and white, where are you Lord of love, God in heaven, when the children go hungry, and the sick not tended, the blind ignored and stumbling in submission to a plight of darkness,
And in all of this, tell me where is oneness, will You save us from damnation on earth, from those that just do not care?
Lord of love, as a beggar I lament.
Truthfully Steve Harvey's book for women is a bit sexist. I will tell you why later. Being visually impaired, I receive talking books based on my preferences, other than the ones I specifically order, and although I did not order this one, I guess they know I am single, so they sent me Straight Talk... by Steve Harvey.
This book is for women, but from reading it I am learning a lot. For one, there is nothing wrong with a woman earning more than her spouse, but the type of man who tries to be supported completely, and I mean not temporarily because he is out of a job, but all the time, first of all does not really love the woman, but does not have normal instinctual behavior of a man.
Also, many of us over forty are tired of the dating scene, the games, the dos and don'ts. We all know it gets old, although I did feel a sense of empowerment when the last man I dated told me he was in love with his last girlfriend, (the kind I call always one girlfriend behind although truth be known, I was never really his girlfriend) and I told him after the party we went to which was with my friends, and he had never told me before hand that he felt this way, that I thought it best we not see one another again. I could not figure for the life of me why he did not call ahead to say he just could not take me to the party. I even offered that he drop me off and I would find another ride home. Strange. Being legally blind, I do not drive, maybe he was being nice and thought I would have trouble getting a ride, but he had a lot of time to tell me... Never mind that.
What I am saying is at a certain point it all gets old, not to sound trite or cynical. Another thing Steve says is that independent women who can take care of themselves, turn men off. I am legally blind, but I think I might fit that category, because I am very independent. Still, I think that although men do not usually like relationship books and so forth, there is a lot to be said for some of Steve Harvey's remarks. But, here is what I am critical of in his rhetoric. He says things like women should wait three months to sleep with a man, because if she does not, then he thinks she is not worth waiting for. Well, that sounds like a double standard if I ever heard one.
I mean it makes it sound like men can be man whores and that is just fine, but women are supposed to withhold sex as long as possible to ensure a commitment. Truthfully, I do not believe in sex outside of marriage due to my religion, but still being an enlightened feminist I find this type of attitude a bit offensive. He says women have all this power, and in a sense we do sometimes. However, I have found that once a man gets disenchanted with me, I have no power. I realize this is self deprecating, and maybe I should become a comedian like Steve, since comedians are self deprecating sometimes, lol.
Also he says things like "leave the house coats and hair rollers until he's really into you." That is stupid and sexist. It gets really tiresome to impress a guy, and you know how Cole Porter songs always have lines like, "you obviously don't adore me", "you can't see your future with me", and Adam Duritz from the counting crows, "so much rejection in every connection," or Alanis Morrissette's song, "I feel so unsexy for someone so beautiful, so unloved for someone so fine, so boring for someone so interesting, so ignorant for someone of sound mind." I think people often feel these ways. But, truthfully although confidence is good, I find this rejectedness a little endearing, maybe because these are songs. It is not that I have not rejected anyone myself. I have and still feel bad about some of it.
I just think it is kind of dumb telling married women, "as long as you keep looking good..." There is no excuse for cheating, etc. and frankly I think Steve Harvey is a chauvinistic guy who is full of crap. LOL
Recently I got way too emotionally meshed with my views and actually took it to a level where I think I acted inappropriately, because although I have a right to feel a certain way, that gives me no right to wig out about it.
I also was taking fb too seriously I think, and there were other factors going on I will not go into, but I lost about three friends in a day and was called names, but so what.
I took a good look at myself, a searching and fearless moral inventory to look for the source of my being that upset, where I was coming from in all of that hysteria.
I realized that although my resentment was well founded, I could only have gotten that upset if I felt in some way threatened emotionally, that it had to be my sense of security, my sense of wholeness, my sense of self, self-esteem, or my sense of wholeness as a person. Maybe I felt that I was challenged in some way.
Maybe I felt like I would have liked to have more than two children as selfish as that sounds, and as spoiled as that sounds, since many people cannot have children at all, and I have more than enough children with my two sons. Perhaps I felt bad for people who cannot have kids and want them badly, when some can have them and do not want them.
But, in truth, it is none of my business what they do. I should not take personally the decisions of others, nor should I judge them, because as I said my resentment is rooted deeper. So, maybe I am trying to apologize to anyone who witnessed this, not because I think my beliefs are wrong, but because I may have been imposing my beliefs or ethical ideals or values in an inappropriate manner and lost my poise or equipoise and peace of mind, but I know it is even more complicated, but I want to say that I am taking a good long look at my own self and what my triggers are in terms of what makes me angry or upset.
All in all, it may just be feelings of my own sense of deprivation, not literally but in Course in Miracles terms, my own sense of inadequacy figured in with perhaps some feelings of loss and lost last chances. I realize I may not be making sense to my readers, and I apologize. I just do not know how to word this without baring my soul. I have realized that anything I publish or put on fb can be baring my soul, and I do not want to do that anymore. I want to keep my integrity and dignity.
I want to clarify my political views in case they were misunderstood. I am not a Republican or a Libertarian. I do believe in the rich paying taxes and I do believe in the government helping the poor, children, elderly, blind and disabled. I am not a Tea Party member either. I am still a Democrat, but I have two fairly conservative views, which I have already discussed, but I want to say for the record that even though I believe in the second amendment I do think guns are not being regulated closely enough, such as assault weapons. However I believe that someone should be able, if they can get the license and pass the shooting test, etc., have a rifle for hunting or a rifle or gun for safety, with very careful handling and know how, and never around children. Also, never around alcohol. People get crazy sometimes where alcohol is involved.
I also wanted to say that although I am pro-life, I do not judge anyone's choice. I would just prefer people stop using it for contraception, like women who have had one after another. Also, I do not like the late ones. I think that is really horrible. I do think that there should be an exception in rape, incest, or some severe abnormality, depending on how the mother feels about it.
Also, I am basically pro-Israel but have empathy for the Palestinians. I do not like the whole Guantanamo thing, but I am not going there. So, for anyone who may have misunderstood, I wanted to make things clear.
I am not running for office, lol or an ego trip or anything, like my views are the only good ones. I am constantly growing and changing and realize, if you have gotten this far in my article without thinking I am too redundant, like a broken record or 'Jack' in The Shining by Stephen, writing the same sentence repeatedly, that all in all I would rather be happy than right.
Just one thing I wanted to add: Some people think that Americans are crazy and paranoid with conspiracy theories like Alex Jones for instance, to site an extreme example, but many feel that if the holocaust could happen, who can really trust their government entirely? That is how I feel. I really do. It is not paranoia, just not being naive about the world, looking back over history and events around the world.
Recently I went to sleep feeling sorry for myself. What was the trigger? For one, my mother well meaning, said that, "your father thought getting married would solve all your problems." She meant well I know.
My marriage ended and I lost my home and the children were living with my ex-husband in Colorado. I was out there on my own and Dad with his companion (Mom and Dad were divorced by then) came out to get me. I was having a severe nervous break down having driven all the way to Colorado with my older son to rejoin my younger son and his father, but their father was already living with his present wife and I was allowed to crash on their couch for one night only, her rules. Imagine you are a woman and your kids are living with their father and he is your ex and is sleeping with his girlfriend while you are pitifully crashing on their couch for the night. Pathetic. You see, even then because I have RP, I was not allowed to drive at night, because retinitis pigmentosa causes night blind and gradually worsens over time. It was nightfall when Teddy and I arrived in Breckenridge. We had stopped by 8:00PM every night since it was summer, but the sun was sinking and the car was failing from the altitude. I was crying sitting in the drivers seat when Ron came to greet Teddy at the passenger door. Truthfully, to my knowledge I had no agenda of trying to be with Ron, my ex, in fact I thought I was heart broken about someone I had broken up with. Now I am all mixed up about it, wondering was I really hoping to put my family back together deep down? All I know is I was homeless, temporarily jobless and had enough on my mind to sink a battleship.
I went to stay with a friend in Boulder who was this really happy all the time kind of guy and was irritated by my 'going through stuff.' We road bikes to the health food store where we purchased me some rescue remedy. I had worked at a health food store back home and was familiar and in fact hoping to work at that very health food store since that was sort of my field then.
We bought groceries and I cooked a vegetarian burrito meal for everyone. We went to a sufi dance that was very enjoyable. I always enjoy the whirling dervish type things. Guess I am just that 'airy fairy' type. But, Paul, my host did not have as much time for me as I hoped after that, and I ended up hanging out with the nice old man who owned the house, wrote for the theosophical society and left banana and orange peals on the stairs, but he was pretty cool. We listened to old blues records together on a turntable. I sat looking at space while my only companion was Marianne Williamson's book Return to Love. I wanted to go to Pearl Street and look for a bar or some fun, but I could not move, as if I were frozen, and then again I could not drive at night. I only slept for short intervals, and then would get up and make myself herbal teas. I had no meds, had never been diagnosed with anything what so ever in terms of mental problems and I was thirty-four going on thirty-five, and they would have shown up by then. That is why I always say if you have a life like mine and keep it together til you are in your thirties, you are most definitely sane and need no labels, as no one does really, but it helps for some who have illnesses like schizophrenia because meds make a world of difference having someone close to me who has the disease.
Well, I cannot tell you everything, because it is quite frankly a little too personal to even blog about, but in the end Dad came to my rescue, with his companion because he was totally blind and little did I know that he would die only two years later.
Once the crisis had passed and we were staying at a lodge in Boulder, I said, "you guys just go home. I am fine now. I'll just stay here. I have my car at Paul's. He can bring it in the morning." They would not hear of it. Paul did bring it in the morning and apologized to me while we were getting bagels and coffee to go that Dad had given me ten dollars for, for not realizing how bad a state I had actually been in.
Dad thought he seemed glad to get rid of me once we dropped him off back at his house, but that was Dad for you, and probably right as usual.
I got to spend time with my children before we went back. They came to the lodge and my father, his friend and I took them out to lunch and shopping on Pearl Street, and I was able to see them and spend time with them before I returned to South Carolina to get a place and my old job back and 'get my life together.' Then we reunited later.
We went back to South Carolina in my car, and Dad was not in good health but a good sport all the way.
I am at my wits end. No one knows anything with all these so call enlightened posters on their fb pages. How many pro liberals have seen their own family go hungry, gone hungry themselves, run completely out of money?, and I mean completely, no stocks, no bonds, no savings, no house, no mortgage, no car, no boat, no motorcycle. How many have really been where I am talking about? Where living on fruits and vegetables is a luxury. Did you know that bologna and white bread is way more fattening than soy milk, raw fruits and vegetables, never mind organic, yogurt, etc.? People are dense and know nothing of what true struggle is unless they are recalling for ten seconds thirty-five years ago when they were young. I am sick of it all, all the lies the phoniness. My friend is dying of cancer. I think part of the reason they offered him no treatment was he had no insurance but they sent him home with no options. He was my companion. But, truthfully if he had had a lot of money they may have sent him to Cancer Treatment of America, and if people with cancer cannot work they can get disability on which they could get Medicare and or Medicaid. But to tell the truth, there was no hope, only pain management. But, believe it or not in our state budget cuts are no longer enabling hospice care for indigent people not on disability or Medicaid or Medicare. I do not know the ins and outs and do not want to give fuel to the fire, so I will not go there. You really think this new healthcare is going to change anything for anyone? I don't. Even Alan was against Obama and all of this. He may have had a different agenda than my own, but knew something I am sure.
I realize my opinions are unpopular among my peers. Very few people like what I have to say in terms of the people I happen to know. I am not strictly conservative nor fiscally conservative, but I do have some conservative views. Some 'friends' are very intolerant of anything I have to say and try to insist that I believe what they do.
I am not going to reinstate what I have already said I am conservative about. I have already been scorned for my unpopular beliefs which are not inbred in me, but have come about through my own experience of life as I see it.
Why are people so hateful if you believe in the right to life? Why are they so hateful that you believe that the second amendment should not be altered? Why do people assume you are a racist if you have conservative views? I used to be like them. I used to think anyone not voting for Obama was a racist. I even canvased for him, but do I think he is a good president? No, not really.
I saw a post about how conservatives are racist. I used to think that too, but it is pardon the expression, bullshit. Adolf Hitler was liberal, a socialist. Many liberals are extremely antisemitic, although the new Jewish mayor of Frankfurt, Germany is a Social Democrat, a very liberal party, but it is different in Europe. America is not Europe. If the settlers who came after the Native Americans were already here, wanted America to be Europe, they would have stayed in Europe.
I was very happy that Frankfurt elected the first Jewish mayor since 1939 and the holocaust.
I was very touched when President Obama was elected. I cried along with Oprah and Jesse Jackson. I still think it is a good thing, and I hope we have more diversity in our presidents from now on.
It breaks my heart that people are angry when I say I do not like or believe in abortion. It confuses me when they get angry about my believing that people should be allowed to have a legal registered gun if they are sane and want one for protection.
I am sad that while everyone jumps all over me for not conforming to their liberal Democrat agenda, few will pay attention to my save the wildlife agenda.
It is almost as if I am on a planet where I do not belong, because so few people agree with me. I almost feel like I need to go on a space ship looking for another planet.
Then I get attacked about my eyesight. Someone said, "why do you even engage in dialogue if you can only read a line or two?"
First of all I never engaged in several long paragraphs. I let other people engage with one another. I read what I could, and I got the basis of their argument. It is mostly redundant rhetoric. I do not think they really listened to my Charlie Daniels interview. That is another thing I am sick of is people equating southern with redneck. I grew up in the south, so am I a redneck? Please. I beg of you, once and for all, have an open mind and stop pigeon holing.
